I acknowledge that I have slept and entertained women to distracted myself from the issues that I had in my life. At points in my life, I have been numb to the problems I had going on personally. I substituted women to only get one thing from them. I have always fled after the conversation of “what we are doing.” I pushed away potential relationships which could have lead to marriage. Sex is one of the most potent drugs out there, and once you are hooked, you are hooked. I let my insecurities get the best of me, and I never dealt with the root of the problem. One quote that has replayed over the years says, ” A man must first find himself before he finds his woman, or he’ll damage whatever woman he comes in contact with along the way. I know for a fact that I have hurt a lot of women that I may have crossed paths with over the years. I acknowledge that I put band aids many of my open wounds. It is now time to remove those bandaids and let the healing begin.
To all the women that I have hurt, I want to apologize for the hurt, harm, and damage I have caused you. I apologize for acting selflessly and only thinking about myself. I also want to apologize to a particular woman. This woman was there for me from the jump and showed me that it was ok to be myself. I am genuinely sorry that we lost a friendship due to my actions and lack of actions. I apologize for lying, cheating, mistreating, and, most of all, not being 100%. I let my issues bleed into your life, and I left without cleaning it up the mess I caused.
I acknowledge that my past has troubled the relationships that I have had. I accept the fact that I caused more harm than good over the years. I know that if we may never cross paths again, I learned something, whether good or bad. I also want to forgive those women who caused deep issues that can only be healed by God. Whatever past issues that I have from this day forth, I will face them head-on and deal with them.