The Volcano

Now you’re wondering why am I talking about a volcano. Let me explain how it relates to life. A Volcano erupts because of density and pressure inside and below the surface of a volcano. I could go into the whole scientific background on magma,  tectonic plates, and all the other scientific terms. I’ll spare you the science stuff lol. The science nerd in me coming out a bit.  You probably had to make a volcano in science class or for a science project back in the sixth grade like I did. Back in the day, it was required to participate in the 6th-grade science project experiment. I chose to create a volcano and have an entire community surrounding the volcano. I used clay and some grass to make the base of the volcano. I used the monopoly houses and hotel pieces as the communities lol. I was hyped about my project until I got to the competition that day. Some of the kids in my class actually had created houses, farms, people, and pets. I was shocked at how many details other students put into their volcano projects.  There was nothing I could do to fix my volcano so I made the best of it. I only had a couple ingredients to pull this eruption off. A little bit of food coloring, a squirt of detergent, a spoonful of baking soda and some vinegar for the volcano. You know my mom didn’t play with housing supplies, so I was limited.

When it was show time, the ingredients produced a fizzy foam chemical reaction between baking soda and vinegar. The eruption only lasted ten seconds. I was shocked by it. One of my teachers told me that I needed to add more laundry detergent which makes the reaction last longer. He also stated like a real volcano a volume of pressure was needed to make a greater reaction and my volcano vent and crater were too large. It made sense when I saw other students had smaller volcano vents and craters.

Volcanoes are just a natural way the Earth cools off and releasing internal heat and pressure.  I normally internalized a lot of things including feelings, words, actions and most things life throws my way. It’s just my natural reaction to keep things inside like many other people in the world. Like many others, I never really talked about it and eventually, it started to seep out.  When I feel the pressures of life, I tend to feel like a volcano ready to explode at any minute. When the pressure keeps building and building like a skyscraper. The smallest things can cause you to blow and everyone around is effected the hot words of lava. Your words and actions can be a catastrophe to your family, co-workers and especially your mate/relationship. Like the great Maya Angelou quoted “I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.” I have messed up tons of relationships that some are being repaired and others not due to my actions and words.

I realized that my volcano is filled with anger at past people, situations when I didn’t speak up especially when it came to my father.  A lot of people are walking around like ticking time bombs and ready to explode when something triggers our anger. You often see it in road rage, mothers snapping, or people killing each other over meaningless things. Often times when we get hurt in life, our hurt turns to anger and our anger lies dormant until something triggers it. When the anger is triggered, all the pain comes rushing back and often times we are unable to control what comes out.